Venting out all my frustration and anger!

Well... i'm gonna try to be frank... This is the first time that I have a manager like this person... Ms. B. Well... she may look all pretty and good... but she isn't! omg...!! She is like a wolf in a sheep's skin. Well... It all happened so fast that i do not know anymore what is going on!! My friend and I always get shot down by her... like... us coming late, us not smiling, us not listening to her... us always talking back to her... sigh...

Ok... put it this way... When I'm working, it not i have to always smile... well.. imagine this... smiling while folding clothes, smiling when walking around the shop... well... people will definitely think I'm crazy!! And also... us... talking back to her... well... We have our RIGHTS...!! OMG...!! She thinks its rude to talk back...!! I mean if we are right... we have our rights to talk back! and well if we are not, we won't answer back. And well... mainly when anyone who would voice out... is mainly always trying to protect or defend themselves. Sigh.... it is so... aarrgghhh...!!

Even though she is pregnant... it doesn't mean that she can ask for sympathy by just making funny noises... always sitting down, always feeling cold... and well... mainly those two mentioned... sigh... this is my very first time i know of a pregnant lady who would have so many health issues...

And well... according to my colleagues... that if a pregnant woman is always hardworking during the 9months... the child would grow up and have the exact character like the mom... hardworking... and well if it is the opposite... then the child would be like that. And well... i feel like she is gonna have a wonderful time during her pregnant period... sigh...

Well... i know that shit happens... and well... it does... but sometimes it happens for no reason... and i hate having that feeling. And well... most of the time its pissing off to be working almost at the same shift as Ms. B. And well... its pretty annoying!! She complaints like no one's business... she is a horrible manager... and worst... she is trying to hard to impress everyone!

Sigh... I just can't wait for my last day of work.... wee...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best surprise ever...!!

OMG...!! I have never had a surprise like this ever!! it definitely left me speechless...

The day started as normal as it can get. Wake up early, travel to work together, ha

ve lunch somewhere and well... pretty much the same routine almost everyday... and well... what made today different

was that it ended with a wonderful surprise... that i have not seen it coming... Well... for once in my life there is someone who act

ually really surprise me till i was speechless...!!

Well... the ended in such a way that my partner had asked me to go over to his place to play with the hamsters and well... we did... it lasted for about almost two

hours, then he asked me to go to my car and we had to talk. At that point it didn't occur to me on what was about to happen... and suddenly there was a stalk of red rose that was presented by him to me!!

OMG...!! It was the sweetest thing that any guy has d one for me!! well... in this case.. my boyfriend. Well the previous one did a really bad job at it till i could guess and even say it out what was hidden in his car boot. hahaha!! it was kinda for told... lol...!!

But this was really different... it was a really truly great day for me! Thank you dear...!!

So many unanswered questions...

When things do boil down to a certain point.. there is no return...but then again... it can always be salvaged... It is just up to that person if they do want it to work. But sometimes... it just can't be saved...

Well... There are undoubtedly many unanswered questions in my head now... most of it is related to my studies... but some do go to other things. But than again... there are just so many unanswered questions that it is just too difficult to answer... why is that so? i really wonder.

but luckily i have someone in my mind right now and always be with me till the end of days and i really am thankful that i have that special someone who i can always share my thoughts, feelings, emotions and also my frustration to. It's great! and of course.. i do also be there for him. I am so grateful for him... and also not forgetting my family and close friends.

All Stressed out...

Being all stressed out due to work and assignments is a normal thing.. its like a norm already... sometimes i don't know how to express it or even hide it within me. sigh... hoping that everything will just pass by like how the clouds float by in the sky, being blown away by the wind. I just hope i'm like that now.

So many unanswered questions... just too many... till it is currently burying me alive now... screaming helplessly but no one hears my cries... feeling sadness, being all alone in the darkness. But then again, i am happy that i'm surrounded by my friends. But then again... how far am i going to go just for them? i know i will only go the distance for a named few only.

How am i suppose to go on with the stress all coupe up in me? Do i vent it out...? all the frustration.. i have to... if not i'l go berserk... or even insane... imagine me going insane... hahaha!! not sure what will happen though... lol....

I remember my lecturer mentioned to me and my group members a couple years back. He said that even though i may be quiet now, but when i get angry... woohoo...!! all hell breaks lose..! for he used to had a student like me... quiet. But when that student of his went over the edge, knifes went flying around in the kitchen. Not a good sign... And well.. till date nothing like that had happened before... thank God..!!

Well... i feel a lil better now, after venting out what is all coupe up inside me...

The Road to Success

Something that i had seen a few months back at a photocopy shop in PJ. It was very touching... so i decided to have it written down for my own reminder... Hoping that it will also aid the rest of my friends in the near or far future.... Well... here is the poem of 'The Road to Success'.

The road to success is not straight.

There is a curve called Failure,
a loop called Confusion,
speed bumps called Friends,
red lights called Enemies,
caution lights called Family.

You will have flats called Jobs.
But, if you have a spare called Determination,
are engine called Perseverance,
insurance called Faith,
you will make it to a place called Success.

Random rambling... random thoughts...

When things just don't fall into place like how we all hope for, we just can't force it to be the way we want it. but any hows... life is just not as simple as what it is... routine work falls into play... work... study... hanging out with friends... and well many more things...

But in reality... how do we actually treat each other? with respect or with disgust...? or just plain simple... being a hypocrite... a liar... a complainer?? well... it all depends on the individual... and i have known of a few people like that. Complaining... bi**hing... talking behind other people's back.. .well its not gd...! It's never gd...!!

Just dislike it on how a friend could do that... sigh... feeling kinda down, but well as i said... it depends on that person... in other words... the individual. Its not easy trying to please 1 person... its never easy... sigh...

I wonder.. what would happen if two or more people have started a trend to talk bad behind someone's back... lets say a friend... what would they have done? Talk out loud? or even talk behind that person's back? i really wonder...? or would they go to this one or two particular person to voice out their opinion... their complaints... and also their disgust... It would well... be very W-R-O-N-G.... or rather S-M-A-R-T...!! LOL...!!

Well... smart in a sense or... being sarcastic... hahaha...!! imiagine... telling one pr two people who is cloz to the person... what would happened? would things grow bad? thin? I'v no idea...! But honestly from my point of view... i do not like this kind of person, and i can't bring myself to say such horrid thing about them... but if i were left with no choice.. i may actually do so... but than again... as i mentioned.. it depends...

sigh... even more sighs.... It's just difficult to actually be that person's friend... its just sad to know that we all have that kind of friend some how... But hoping that the person(s) will change for the better and not continue with their trend... oh well....

Weird situations....

When it comes to weird situations... what would you do? well.. for me it depends... but recently i've got plenty of info regarding a friend of mine. Well more of knowing about most of that person's bad character and also stinky attitude problem. But i feel like i'm unable to voice out my opinion to that person... for i'm afraid that it will affect my friendship with that person...

Well... things did went from bad to weird... its just all plain weird! from being plain sarcastic to just plain rude... and sometimes the feeling of wanting to slap that person right in the face... but sadly... it can't be done.. sigh...

At times i just don't know what to do... even as a close friend... sigh... its just plain sad that i'm unable to help that person... love too.. but it'll end up bad... sigh... sad... really sad...!

Fighting Umbrella Corporation

Well... the corporation is the one that had brought all the madness... all the weird and hideous creatures.. and also even turned her lover to one of the mutated creatures that in the end had remembered the past and had saved her.

But... with the coming back if Alice... well... if i was her... I would definitely go after the company for turning the world as well as my lover into hideous brainless creatures... even for scientific experiment.... Well... i would get myself ready for war..!! guns... missiles... grenades... u name it... i want to have it... just to have my revenge on the company... well.... of course i would want to have shield... vest... something that would protect me from any scratches or even tiny lil bullets.... lol...!

That would be mission 1.... mission 2 would be to penetrate the company, planting bombs here and there to set the whole place to destruct when i have the remote in my hands when things do go bad though... and also to go after the head of the corporation, where once the person is down,. the company will not function well without it... and also if it does not work, i'll just kill everyone who is in the same building and also to rig the whole building with c4's... and not only that, also to prepare for the city's meltdown, in other words... to have a plane or chopper to fly in a with a nuclear bomb to destroy the whole city with the corporation together with it. Bring it all down!! If it all comes down to it... i might even sacrifice myself to destroy the company... to take it down with me...!

Why Vampires Suck?

Well..... Put it this way.. from all the shows that i have watched so far that has something to do with vampires... it is all weird... it dates back all the way to Dracula time... Imagine... tilt your head one side and you will get your blood sucked out by a vampire.. i mean... its just plain weird!!

And also... to scare a vampire off is to have garlic around you... hhmm... i thought it is

for cooking... and not to keep away vampires? anyway... vampires only thrives off blood... may it be blood from humans or even from animals... it is still blood. Well... it may seem scary for the 1st time... but it will definitely be just plain weird...

Ok... imagine.. the vampires from twilight... they can go under the sun but the only catch is that they will shimmer like diamonds under the sun. But then... from the series of 'Vampire Diaries'... well the vampires can wear a custom made ring and walk under the sun without shimmering under the sun and they just blend in with the crowd... and they have a flaw... which is they look horrible when they see blood.. all their veins on their face just pops out with their eyes turning black... And also from underworld... the vampires are pale...and they are really good fighters...

cool effects tho... haha!!

I didn't know that vampires change or evolve over time like how

our technology evolves... Its weird and funny at the same time! hahaha...!! Its just that all of the vampires movie so far has made vampires to be very fictional, as in very fake... And also... i thought that vampires are not allowed to fall in love with a human but than again... movies have made vampires sounds very distance... and also to make them look stupid... (no offense....) hehe...

But... to actually to know that the vampires in movies evolves over time from the past till date...

it just sucks... sigh...

What Distance I’d Go for My Other Half?

For me... i would get to know my other half, well... it will definitely take time to get to know him. Put it this way... i would always love to surprise him with many things, it can always be from the form of gifts or even just me being there for him.

When it comes to going the distance i would definitely be ready for anything that comes my way and i will always be there for him, for he is the love of my life, and there would be nothing that would interfere any of my actions or even my thoughts for him.

I'm brought up by my parents to always be mindful of others and also to always be thoughtful to others as well. But in my current case, there will always be friends involved in my life, but nothing is as more important to me than my other half! Whenever there are always things

getting in the way, I will always try to think of many ways to overcome it and be there for him. For instance if he does not have any transport to his destination, i would always be there for him, even for his birthday... I will always plan ahead for his surprise party by just going behind his back and plan things out. And when my plans fall into place, i would wait for his expression to be surprise! His shocked expression would be priceless... and that would be a great memory!

And well.. there are always many plans that are thought up, but i will always try to get it to work out so that i would have great memories! Such as the most recent trip i had this year. I

went to Perak with a group of friends, and well... it has been a great trip and also it has been a great memory! Pictures defiantly tells a thousands words! hehe...

Imagine... if in the future... it could be the nearest future or even in the far future... what if my other half has

to go overseas for studies or even for work and has to be there for quite some time, i would definitely always be there for him, in a sense of through the net, well.. thr

ough skype or even MSN.... and probably on one fine day, i would actually take the first flight out of Malaysia to where ever he is and surprise him there! It would definitely be great!!

Imagine if there is bad news that he wouldn't be able to make it back to Malaysia due to some complication, I would undoubtedly get the bad news first... of course, but i would co

me out with a plan that would be an ultimate surprise to him. Imagine... what if i could try to purchase the first flight ticket to be with him, and to his surprise... to have his family to be on the next flight to where ever he is to be together as a family. That would be totally awesome...! It would be one of my greatest effort!

Well... i will always say this to him... "I love you, and i would always be there for you no matter what happens. I will always love you and will never stop loving you ever! In life there are always ups and downs and there will always be bad and good times shared. No matter what it is, I will always be there for you, no matter how difficult it may be, I Love You!!". and I will end it with a big fat tight hug from me to him!

Life is a B**CH...! Live with it!!

In the past few years, i have experienced and known many people from all walks of life, but somehow or rather something still doesn't change about me... It is difficult for me to actually get along with a person, but getting to know me isn't at all difficult, but rather it may take some tiring process. But anyway... all i can say is that what i have learned so far is.... 'Life is a B**CH... Live with it!'.

I've known a few people that complains so much that other people around them just ignores their complaints, and starts to walk away from those who complains. Well... i've known a few hypocrites, some who thinks that they are the smartest person in the universe/ milky way/ galaxy, and mot forgetting people who thinks they can act like nothing had ever happened, like the other party is STUPID...!!

Well... in my opinion... this kind of people are not worthy to be called friends at all, they are worth nothing to the other party. More complaints means more headache... more arguments regarding a small matter could be equivalent to a big fat headache or just plain irritation. Oh well... what can we do? some people are like that, there is no use trying to change that person(s) and well... it is their life... their present and their future. It is up to them to make a path for their future. Some may take a longer time to get there... some may not, it is up to each person's capability.

Life is always unfair anyway... there are always unfair things. Well... all we can do is live with it! No use crying over spilled milk... rather try to compromise and think about what will be the next move... sigh... but sometimes there are some people who do not do that, they would rather skip l;evel 1 and run to level 3 or 5... where with skipping a few levels will spell disaster to others... and also to themselves. That is why... in anything or any situation, never ever skip level 1... always start with the tutorial!

Well... I have a few friends that i hang out with all have similar thoughts or opinions. Some of the friends that we have are sometimes pretty smart, till they themselves at times may embarrass themselves unknowingly... but anyhow... there are also certain people whom only care that they are always right, no matter what other people may say... or rather simplify it... 'Always right till proven wrong'...

I do have a few friends whom are like that, some don't even admit to their mistakes... wow!! hahaha...!! anyway... i too have made that mistake... but lesson learned. Hehehe.... oh well.... life has to go on anyway... no matter how bad a situation is, as what my friends always tell me... 'Always think positive!!'. And i thank you for yer advices... it really help at times....

Life is always a B**CH.... live with it...!!